01/19/2011

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Is there a person in your life who always has a hug and makes you feel better when they're around? Who is it – and what do you love about them? Feel free tu Hate mehh fOr wHat i am..<br/> <br/> bUT nEver haTe mehh fOr wHat i Am nOt..<br/> <br/> iF yOur gOing tU juDge mEhh,<br/> <br/> mAke sUre yOu do it<br/> \<br/> /<br/> \<br/> CORRECTLY =D..<br/> <br/> mZs. AickaLeeNitah XharVie Pundato Abaton :)..<br/> <br/> ms. xWit sEveNTeN :D LurViezx :)<br/> <br/> I&#39;m not a Perfect Girl. My Hair Doesn&#39;t always stay in Place. I spill alot of things && I&#39;m pretty clumsy. But when I think about it && take a step back I remember how life truly is && maybe. I like being Imperfect. I am always a mess. I can never keep my own secrets. I laugh too hard at stupid things. My favorite songs make me cry. I always watch for 11:11 but I miss it more than I notice it. I live in the past, in the memories I have with the people I love. I hate thinking about reality and I am so homesick that it is not even funny. But not homesick in a missing my house kind of way maybe it is more like heartsick for all the things that I can’t get back. It is hard for me to define myself. I guess I am just a cliché- the girl who love too hard and didn’t get anything in return. I don’t want to be the heroine on some tragic love story; I just want the person who will never give me a second thought. Every girl wants Prince Charming, but I am different. Prince Charming may be nice and all but I want a guy who will come up from behind, put his arms around me and whisper in my ear that he loves me. I want a guy that stays awake at night just thinking about me. A guy who will call at like three in the morning just to tell me how much he misses me (HAHA, HELL NO! I LOVE MY SLEEP. JK) and he would come over just after we get off the phone because he wants to know how I’m really doing because I said I was fine but we both know I was lying. He would kiss me on my forehead and tell me that everything’s going to be alright. He may not be Prince Charming to anyone but in my eyes he is. I am afraid not of anything in particular just in general. I come off as the girl who will take any risk that comes my way. But I am not the kind of girl who is looking for trouble. I am the kind of girl who doesn’t know that it is okay to take a chance. :| I drink. I fight. I flirt. That’s how people see me. They can’t do anything about it. What they don’t know is that I only drink with people I know will take care of me when I get drunk. I fight when there’s something to fight for especially for my love one’s sake. And I only flirt with the one I know who only flirts with me and no one else. I’m not that good of a person. I make mistakes I have regrets. I act a lot slower than I really am. I cry. I laugh way too loud when something isn’t really that funny. And sometimes the mean things people say about me can really get to me. I’m afraid of being alone. When people come into my life, I push them away. I don&#39;t know why. I know I&#39;m scared, I don&#39;t know if it’s of commitment, of everything in the middle, or of losing them in the end. But I try, I do, I try to let people in, but right when they walk through the front door, they&#39;re already being pushed out. Maybe I&#39;m afraid of love.<br/> <br/> Alam mo yung masipag may type? AKO YUN! :D